Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Just thinking... and a little planning.
Well, lately I have really been thinking about the next baby, no nothing is in the plan for at least another year, but i'm a planner. My first birth was not what I had planned at all or what i thought a birth should be. I love LOVE my son but it just wasn't a pleasant experience to get him here. So with my second I did a lot of research and decided that i was going to go natural. I found a relaxation technique that would work for me and studied it. Not soon after I found out I was pregnant again. I was still not quite sure about a home birth but still had bad feelings towards the hospital, that I would have to go back to due to insurance. But went with a hospital birth. My doctor was supportive and the birth went really well. It was completely natural and most of labor was done at home and my hospital stay for the birth was very short. The only thing I didn't like is that I was basically stuck in the position of pushing on my back, I didn't want that. I also had a longer stay after baby due to loosing a lot of blood. So for the most part it was more my perfect birth. But there is still just something bugging me about a hospital birth, so I have come to the decision that I will be doing a home birth. Yes big step. Am I taking a huge risk? Some would say yes. I personally don't think I am as long as I get a midwife that is licensed, one that can give me the meds to slow down bleeding if that is a problem again, one that will catch a problem when it arises and if it's necessary will have me go to the hospital. But for the most part I think it's about the same, if not safer than laboring at home as long as possible, which is what i would do if I were to do another hospital birth. So I am now in the process of finding the RIGHT midwife and finishing letting the idea of a home birth settle in. I'm really happy and at peace with my decision to do this. It feels right! Like this is what is supposed to happen. So in a year or so we will be trying for another little baby and planning on our first home birth. Lots to plan for and get ready so when the time comes I can just enjoy the pregnancy and birth of a sweet baby. :)